Tova
I almost wish I could tell you the flavor of the pain like it was freshly shaved marror, or the flavor of the numbness in my bones, the bubble-gummy remnants of a cavity resolved. I wish I could package the way I stared at the wall – put it into the box like the drive […]
Her Name was Esther
This will be an odd way to begin something humorous, but bear with me. My brother’s mother in law passed away a few days ago. Her name was Esther, and she celebrated her 99th birthday in March. She came from a long line of rabbis, and since she was the last of her generation for […]
My Mother’s Stuffing
What do you eat when you’re insides are churning with confusion and disbelief? Wanting to shove comfort down into my mouth agape with disbelief, I quickly run down my long dead mother’s repertoire of comforting foods. A way to keep my ancestors alive in the midst of the death that is coming at me from […]
The Cost of Freedom
I came home that night after midnight, and the thrill of my first genuine escapade into the night since becoming a mother over five years ago still danced in my veins. I felt proud of myself and excited to tell everyone that I left both kids with my husband and took the night off to […]
